-John Mayer
It’s a rainy day, so visiting care points is pretty much shot for the day. I don’t think we’ll be playing soccer either, it will probably be too muddy. All I can think about is going back home. What will it be like when I get back. I’ve learned so much, and I want to share it with everyone there. I miss my family and friends so much, I never thought it would be this hard to leave them. I’m torn between what’s ahead and what’s behind. There is a part of me that wants to see them right now, but part of me is scared to ever go back. I left being one person, and I won’t be the same when I get back. I don’t want to return to being who I was.
The only thing that seems to be of comfort is the Bible. I’ve been reading the book of Romans, and it just points me back to the Cross. I’m justified through Christ, my good deeds are as filthy rags before Him, and I know that God won’t let me stay where I’m at. He loves me too much to let me sit in my sin, or become complacent with who I am in the moment. His aim is perfection in my life, and it’s not measured based on what I do, but on what He already did. His Spirit is alive and working in me.
I know May is a long ways off, or at least it seems to be. But, I know that I’ll look back on this blog and laugh, because the work He is doing in me is beyond me. I won’t come home with all the answers, and I can’t come back hoping to save the day! But, I will come back as a real person who has struggles and a ton of questions. I’m in the boat of brokenness, trying to figure out what this life is all about, and who Jesus really is? If you want to join, then hop in. I can’t promise you all the answers, possibly a whole lot of questions, but I know that God will be with us. It’s a boat filled with death and life, but it’s an awesome adventure. It’s all about the Cross.
Honestly, I just needed to blog this because it’s on my mind and I can’t think about anything else, so thanks for reading! I hope it blessed you in some way.
“By one offering He has perfected forever those who are being sanctified.” (Hebrews 10:14)
Keep up the good fight, you are where God wants you.
Jon,
So Swazi shuts down when it’s rainy, too? I thought that was only here in Mexico. 🙂 Thanks for sharing your thoughts today.
Erin
So funny you mentioned the boat…wow. Our God reigns. No coincidences. You are loved, be encouraged. Slay the mamble jamble 🙂
Jon,
Hang in there and know that you are loved and missed! God has planted you there for this period of time in your life for a reason – Praise Him for it – and serve Him with all of your heart. God will be with you always, and He will bless your efforts in furthering His Kingdom. God Bless You, Jon.
Talk to you soon.
Your brother in Christ Jesus,
John