I’ve come to the point in my walk with Christ where I no longer want someone else to define my faith for me. I want Christ. That’s it; nothing more, nothing less. So, He called me to get into the boat. A boat headed for Him. A boat filled with questions, but few answers. A journey full of adventure. I got into the boat and decided to sail for who knows where, and it’s the best thing that could have ever happened to me.
If I had to title the trip, it would be Brokenness. That’s what drives us towards Him. It seems as though the more I seek to understand Him, the less I actually know. And, you might think I’m crazy, but that actually drives me all the more. I search for answers and end up with more questions, but it makes the journey all more exciting!
It’s in the midst of brokenness that we truly find God. It’s there that I don’t need to understand, I can just be. I can live in His Kingdom, and experience true Grace, Love, and Mercy. That’s the life He’s called us to, but that’s not the life we preach. Everyone else looks at the Church and doesn’t see an adventure. They see four walls and a bunch of struggling people that sing songs and listen to a preacher for an hour!
Where is the joy in that? Where is the life of Christ in that? Where is the true community that Christ wants His Church to be? The Church He died for?!?!
I would have to say that I never want to go back to how life was. I’ve been discovering who God really is, and that’s the point to this walk. I’ve learned that the only way I can ever change is by His Spirit. He’s been teaching me about His Grace; working it in all areas of my life, and that’s awesome! Without His Grace I would be nothing. I can’t live without it. He’s brought me to a point in life where I’m just tired of trying to live out this life by works. It’s almost as if we spit in His face every time we try to earn our justification and righteousness by works. It’s basically saying He isn’t enough, and His death isn’t enough! Romans has been my favorite book in the Bible, for this very reason. You should read it sometime if you haven’t, and if you then read it again. Let us never forget why we’re here, and Who has brought us here.
This blog might one of the most jumbled ones I’ve written yet. A lot of it might not make sense, and you might say that it’s easy to understand, but unless you’ve experienced it you probably don’t understand it. I hope that everyone would get this, our faith lies in this.
God Bless You Guys!
Peace Out!
Jon
Deep stuff, Jon!
It made perfect sense and was not jumbled 🙂 My thoughts have been along the same lines lately so I enjoyed reading this.
Very true – be praying about what your role in the American church will be when you get back – how will you be able to take what you’ve learned and experienced and be a change agent here in the “tired” American church. Praying for you friend.
Thank God that He brought you to this place of brokenness. It was hard for me to realize that the state of brokenness I have experience and am in is a gift from God. It is at this point that we either follow Him or deny Him completely. It would seem that following Him would be the easy and obvious choice. However, in the world we live in, it is very difficult to follow Christ. But if we let the Holy Spirit work in us, and allow our relationship between ourselves and Jesus Christ to be a love relationship, it will be the most rewarding decision we have ever made.
Keep falling in love with Jesus Christ.
Your sister in Christ, Talitha